Friday, May 21, 2010

感动我的文字。。。

Nothing prepares you for motherhood. Suddenly you have all this responsibility and there is no room for failure. (Extracted from Women Weekly, Amy Mastura)

是真的呀!朦朦懂懂的我做了妈。还来不及准备也不懂如何学习,我又做了一年多的妈。一天一脚步,无时无刻的学习做妈。希望自己不会是太差的妈吧!

Saturday, April 24, 2010

国阵好还是民联棒?

我有朋友活跃于马华,也有朋友钟情于民联。

见到马华朋友,总会问他关于家定,诗杰,细历。见到民联朋友,就会问他冠英。

总的来说,就像人类一样,每个团体,都有好人好事,也有坏人坏事。

以前总认为反对党最棒,因他们为人民争取福利,谋幸福。当民联执政与几个州属后,我们才发现,的确,说时容易,做时难。到最后,还是一个“说”字。

而国阵呢? 一直以来的贪污事件,都是公开的秘密。经过三零八后,有进步吗?我看不到。国家AUDITOR每一年所带出的问题,到最后都不了了之,只有小鱼被捕,而大鱼却继续的逍遥法外。

反对党里,我讨厌安华。从九一六事件到现在ONEMALAYSIA,他都一直在抨击马来西亚。除了自己,除了抨击,他有为人民做过什么吗?

国阵里,我讨厌三美。这么老了,还要抓着党主席一职不放,明知道大家都不喜欢他,还硬硬要留到下一次党选才肯退位。而最近所放出的言论都毫无建设性。

民联里,争权夺利,国阵里,也一样。

以前,我住的地方国阵代表当选,啥也没做,如今,民联执政,啥也没发生。

难道我们的国家真的没有一位政治人物真的将人民放在心上?以人民福利为先?大家都只喜欢喧闹?只喜欢抹黑对方?都只喜欢钱与权?

真的,下一届大选,我看不见那一个阵党真的值得被投选。

国阵好还是民联棒?
我看,
两个都是旗鼓相当
的差!

Sunday, April 18, 2010

Son, you touch my heart..

孩子,你触动了我的心。。。

玮栋渐渐的长大了,开始模拟大人的一举一动。这两个星期,他给了我许多许多惊喜。。。

每天早上替他洗澡时,都会拿着他那五艘小船,告诉他“Boat Boat"。上星期五,当我拿起那几艘小船时,毫无预警地,竟然听到他说:“Boat Boat”。哇,刹那间,全世界都停止了旋转。真的好感动。。。好感动。。。又一次让我体会到身为一个母亲的心情。现在的他,已学会了七个单词:爸爸,妈妈,car car, flower, bird bird,nian nian(milk), BOAT BOAT。。。那天,虽然电脑又故障了,但,我还是很开心,很开心了一整天。


上星期六,带着孩子与女佣去商场,on the way时,玮栋竟然开始哼歌,而且还是很长气那种:nya nya nya...nya nya nya~ ~ 哇,还好机警的我及时将他的歌声录了下来。

星期一,吃晚餐时,他竟然捏了我很多很多下,很痛耶!

星期二早上,他看到kakak时,竟然尖叫,过后还格格笑,然后又尖叫,叫后又在笑。好可爱。

星期三,工作压力很大,电脑很不中用,Internet ID竟然无端端logout了,要找资料又找不到,心情糟透了。回家途中,想到了BB,但,却于事无补。在车里发泄了好一阵子才去家公家婆家接孩子。抱起BB,心里安定了一些。相往常时,对BB说:“来,kiss mummy一下。”平时说完这句话,他都没有反应,都是我在他脸上亲一下。今天,当我说完了这句话,他竟然拥着我,在我脸上亲了一下,还是有声音“ng ah”有口水那种。哇,我欣喜得立刻喊家公家婆,大声喊:“玮栋kiss我了,还有声音呢!”

不用说,那一晚的我都轻飘飘的。。。好爽,好爽。。。

Sunday, March 7, 2010

Single, married and married with child...

Facebook is a IN thing nowadays. Almost everybody has their Facebook to get connect with friends, classmates, schoolmate (know or not so familiar), colleagues and etc etc. From Facebook u can peek into others life so easily if your friends always update their status and photos.

I like to browse through my friends’ page each time i log into the Facebook. Looking at their life are so fantastic, are so much excitement, are so eventful, are so energetic. Those single and available, those married without a child, they travelled around the country and the world, they attended all sort of event, they participated in almost all gathering organised by anybody, they are pursuing their dream by going overseas, for study, for working holiday, for...

With all these, sometimes i feel a little bit down looking at my own life. It is a routine, from Monday to Sunday, without excitement and spice. My freedom is limited being a mother, i can’t go anywhere and anytime i want as need to think about the baby. (Hubby is good enough and gives me lots of freedom. Sometimes it is just that my own natural feeling of responsible that can’t let me go out freely without the feeling og guiltiness)

My ability to attend all the gatherings and parties also limited caused i have married to Johor – a state which is 400km away from my home town –KL. Whenever i have chance to go home, be it long or short holiday, family members will always expect me to spend my time with them, and again, the feeling of guiltiness arise again if i go out with friends.

Because of all these GUILTINESS and because i am not a good social butterfly, i have lost touch with so many friends.

I am now just an ordinary woman who sometimes feels satisfy (sometimes not) looking at the growing son and a very good husband.

My Cambodia Maid

My replacement maid finally arrived on Friday. She is quite young (22 years old) and good looking. For the past two days, though she did thing quite slow but thorough enough. The most important thing is my son and in-laws like her. Though both of us are like chicken and duck talking..everything go on quite smoothly cause i am not too particular and demanding. My principal is: As long as she did whatever i ask her to do and able to do it OK, then, i am OK.

Tonight, my son is quite naughty and very hard to put him to sleep. As i am yet to pass my clothes for the maid to soak (for tomorrow washing), i carried the baby and went to the maid’s room. When we approaching her room, we heard that she is sobbing. She told me that she miss her mother in Cambodia and one of her sisters also work in Malaysia. Ask her whether she want to send a letter back home, she can’t get what i mean. My heart feels a pinch. I am trying to comfort her but not sure how much she can understand me.

With this incidence, i have thought about all maids who work in a foreign land. Though some of them are dumb, some of them can’t live up to the employers’ mark and some of them really bad (with ill intention), may be they all worth for our pitiness. They all travelled so far from their home country just to earn some money so that the family members can have a better life. Why can’t we lower our standard and treat them a little bit better?

Thursday, February 4, 2010

My Two Cents

On Bad Habits, i.e. bad temper
Do not find excuses for our shortcomings. We change and improve ourselves not because our partner wants or expects us to do so but it is US, OURSELVES want to do it. And, when it is your WANT, you will be more determine and will not feel so dreadful or like being forced by others. If u are determined to drop bad temper u will find all ways to control yourself (and i definitely knows that say is easier than done as my temper is bad also). One way u can try is when u feel u want to explode already, 抬 头 望望天 ( 或天花板 ) , 让 自己冷静一下,想想一念天堂,一念地 狱 。 (I am trying this way now also.)

Love is sharing be it good or bad, sweet or bitter.
Some questions to you: Why do you date her? What is your opinion on her? When you are together with her, did u have any plan? Did u have any vision on both of your future? Did u share with her?

She is an adult (believe it or not? She is 23 years old now) and need to be treated as an adult. As she always has been treated like a child by all of us (mum and all sisters), i think deep in her heart, she hopes her BF treats her as an adult and let her feel she is useful and important and can be a pillar for you to rely on when you need her.

It is a correct way for not to let the elderly, like parents, sisters and brothers to worry about us but this does not apply to our partner. For a healthy relationship, it needs to be “laugh and cry together, share the fruits and bear the risks together, enjoy the good times and suffer the bad times together” and most importantly “learn and grow together”.

To me, sharing a problem does not necessary mean will burden your partner if you can give them confidence and assurance that you can manage it. Sharing thoughts and idea is also a way to reflect our respect to our partner.

To love someone, you need to love yourself first.
This is cruel but true. I learnt this in hard way from san jie fu. Get yourself back in shape first, please. Live on, move on, with or without her. Don’t attempt to win back love by earning her sympathy. This will not last long and you may feel revengeful to her in future. Focus on your career for the moment and try to show your improvement to her over time – may be turn to her as a friend first if this is an easier way to approach her. Since both of you have given this relationship a chance before, if it does not work out now, you shall move on. This may not a tragedy but an opportunity for you.

Lastly, a question for you to really think on, are you certain that she is the ONE for you?

A relationship will not always be a smooth sailing trip, it needs to go through thunderstorm and rough waves to make it stronger and for you to really appreciate it.

Fortunate or Unfortunate?

Looking at all the cute babies photos that sent by friend, I can’t put a smile on my face as I am thinking about those babies with abnormalities that showed on the Octo (a Singapore TV Channel programme). I have only watched for 3 episodes but it give me a really big impact. I have think about the triplet in US who were borned in their 24 weeks. They are blind and deaf. I respect the mother and mother’s boyfriend, who have support the mother all these years. (The biological father has gone nowhere.) Then, the second family with a daughter who has never grown up, despite already 16 years old, the young lady is still like a baby, she need to rely on the walker to walk, she is only the size of a 4 months old baby. The parent and the sister (2 elder and 1 younger) have take care of her for the past 16 years. The recent week has showed a baby with 2 faces – Baby Laili, who was born in a lowest class in India. She has not survived. But it may be a good thing to her parent.

Watching all these unfortunate cases that happened on the parent, I feel sad for them and I thanks god for giving me a healthy baby. I remembered when I first watched the show on the Triplet, I can’t sleep and tears flowed down from my face when looked at my own child. On the other hand, I feel happy for these children for having parents and family members who love them and have not give up on them. They are fortunate in another way.

Fortunate or unfortunate, this is a choice of yours.

Sunday, January 17, 2010

Good Friend’s Wedding...

Good friend - FM in University has informed us earlier that her wedding will be held on 23 January 2010. Though the venue is far at Beruas, have been thinking that to attend the wedding with two others good friend with one stays at Johor, Kek (same with me) and the other at Malacca (CG). I / We?! have been thinking that Big Bear (Kek’s hubby) will drive and we will pick CG up when on the way to Beruas...However, the beautiful plan always doesn’t work so perfectly...

Few weeks later have been informed by Kek that Big Bear’s very very good friend also held his wedding on the same day...and he is not able to fetch us up while Kek’s also needs to attend company’s dinner on a day before.

The plan was totally ruin and i was totally no idea what to do and how to go. At the same time, get to know that mum’s medical report will be release on 28 Jan of which i definitely need to go up to KL. In heart i have already prepared the trip will not be materialise.

When called FM, she told us that we are her only “jie mei” (sister who accompany the bride to the groom’s house), and this made me changed my mind again. I was figured out hardly what to do in order to attend FM’s wedding. Try to convince Kek that FM needs us more than Big Bear’s friend needs him (very selfish act) but failed, try to convince Kek to let go her annual dinner and she agrees but her boss doesn’t allow as she is the committee member cum MC of the day.

Kek asked me to go with CG a day before and she will try to come on Sat but i rejected the idea. If go, three must go together and we must attend two functions. My insist is mainly due to i want the trip be more valuable as to attend the wedding, there are quite a number of arrangements and consideration i have to make. If i am away, my hubby and baby need to move to PIL’s house which mean it will trouble two parties. And since the date of the planned trip to Beruas and to KL is too near, this made me adamant. Also, if need to take public transport, we need to stop by Malacca to join CG and take another bus to Ipoh, and from there to take taxi to Beruas. The long journey makes me worry. Both good friends can have a good night rest after the trip but i need to take care my baby and to do some cleaning after few days not at home and need to work on Monday. I am really afraid i am not able to cope it.

I hope all my Good Friends can understand my situations.

Later, my good friends told me that they may hire a taxi to Beruas (from Malacca) and this will cost about RM550 (one way) and we will need to take bus to go back home on second day. Though it is a bit pricey and hubby is quite concern of my safety (but let me decide my own want ), i decide to join the trip since we are able to attend FM’s day time event which she needs us most. Again, nothing is smooth, before i inform my good friends my decision, i have received a call from mum that she will officially move to new house on 24 Jan. And, under this circumstances, i think my mummy need me more by going back to KL i can celebrate my mum’s birthday as well which falls on 25 Jan.

And, i still feel i have miss the chance to have a trip with my good friends and afraid that my good friends will blame me for not able to join in the event. =(

Sunday, January 10, 2010

My Cambodian Maid

My Cambodian maid – Phong Ley arrived Malaysia on 14 Dec 2009. I went down to KL to pick her up on 18 Dec. She is shivering when the agent left, so do i. She feels nervous to have faced some strangers and i feel nervous to have a stranger at home.

My Cambodian maid is not bad (first impression) despite not great. She doesn’t know much English but i m satisfy that she knows the simple instruction, i.e. sweep the floor, mop the floor, wipe the table, wash the cloth and etc. She knows the name of some things at home, i.e. television, cd player, vacuum cleaner, blender, grill, window, plate, chopsticks and etc. She also knows some basic conversation like i full, i no hungry, i bath, good morning, good night...

This Cambodian maid only problem is she will feel dizzy when travel in car...even for short distance like from Sentul to Jalan Ipoh...a mere 10 min drives...

I have left her with my my mum and sister’s family on 20 Dec and plan to bring her back to Johor on 1st Jan after my trip to north. Aih..who knows i don’t have “yuan fen” with her as the agent called and asked us to send her back as she has failed her Fomema checking.The scene when we sent the Cambodian Maid back is so touch as she cried when we told her that we needs to send her back to the agent. On the other hand, my niece and nephew also cried and not allowed her to leave despite only know her for 3 days.

Despite the Cambodian Maid is mainly to assist my mum in law to take care of my baby, still have some kind of relief when think that the Cambodian Maid can assist myself and hubby on household. Thought that with the Cambodian maid, i can start to plan and implement my various GREAT plans for the new year. And the dream is now broken and i need to wait for two more months for another “UNCERTAINTY” to arrive. Meantime, i need to fight with the evil maid agency.

Friday, December 11, 2009

耕字...Blogging

很佩服师姐(Julia),从宝宝出世至今十九个月了,不停的写部落格,不停的参加杂志比赛,赢了不少奖品。她所做的一切全都是为了让她的宝宝往后有一段美好的回忆。厉害,厉害,佩服佩服。而我,口说说就可以,真的要身体力行真的有些困难。一直都在说时间不够用,那,就等下星期当女佣来临后,再看看自己有没有开始勤于耕字吧!

I need to put my hat off to my senior, Julia. She has continuously updating her blog, participating in various competitions in magazines since her baby born in 19 months ago. She does all this for her baby. She wants her baby to have a sweet good memory in future. To me, dream and say is an easy task than really put it into the action. Always complain that time is insufficient for me to update my blog, then, let’s see whether i will still use the same excuse when my maid arrive next week yah...=)